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Name: leah
Birthday: 4/19/1989
Interests: Christ--**GBPC--my youth groups--thrift stores --my family--my friends--putt-putt--trees under the sky--camp--WYC--fog--d. webb--dctalk--chris rice--plus one--garden state--church of rhythm
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| "faith... is a bluebird you see from afar / it's for real and as sure as the first evening star / you can't touch it, or buy it, or wrap it up tight, but it's there just the same... making things turn out right."-rufus.. "you can't touch it, or buy it, or wrap it up tight, but it's there just the same... making things turn out right... but whoever adopts me, has to adopt teddy too.... :)"-penny .:THE RESCUERS:.
1--the belly of my guitar smells the same way it did when i first bought it... smells just like Carter's Music.. on galbraith rd. in mt. healthy, ohio.. 2002. my own money.. $135ish bucks. best investment i ever made... (almost more than my camera.. "yeah!"-jas. taylor). --2-- the left ear piece of my old school headphones won't trigger with the sound... plus the radio in the car is dead.... so i just pull off that left ear piece and have the right side play while i drive... that way i can hear my voice too.. and still appear the responsible driver i am to all the people to my left. --3-- i fixed the screwy network deal that hindered easy phone-use today... figured it out! and now it's all better... I HAVE A CELL.. our two-week anniversary is tomorrow.. we'll accept chocolates and yellowy-orange roses... if you insist....;).. boy oh boy.. it's so securing to have a solid communication feed. --4-- i found two great books at the antique store saturday with dad and adg. i bought the Christian's Secret to a Happy Life -hannah whitall smith (1888); and the Way of the Flesh -samuel butler (1944). sound intriguing eh? cause they ARE... i've sure been missing some spiritual wrestling.... like when you just bum around with your brothers: socking each other in the same spot on the shoulder.. or letting them pin you for a minute so they think they're ahead.. then wheeling around to shove their knees into their ears.. *sigh... there's a therapy to that... just like getting "kicked around" a little spiritually is therapeutic. the chastening part. i just didn't have eyes or ears for it a couple weeks ago. i'm game now!! --5-- there was rain today! not snow :) --6-- i finished the first of three papers due in the next couple days.... and got to hang out in the comp lab under my old dorm floor. --7-- saw lexie! and got a back massage... *sigh, yeah. much appreciated. --8-- breathing felt good when adrian took me sledding onto the bayou sunday morning.. what a way to start off ;).... and the sun was pouring some orangey-pink creme into the mounds leaning against the other cottages around the water (ice). --9-- i'm hoping to go to church with trecia this coming sunday! it'd be cool to see wesley again.. and maybe rachel will be feeling better and come too.... not be queezy like tonight. and roger.. and his little boy roy-he. --10-- then we'll hit IHOP like we always do with anisa... and i'll get the regular sized platter of three new york cheesecake stuffed pancakes with strawberries and eggs that are sunny-side up... and bacon.. and syrup.. and butter... and big tall glass of milk. *sigh..... boy. can't wait to talk to the FAM this weekend. PRAISE that the half of them are back from their trip to see nicole in thailand..... and another PRAISE that uncle gregg's heart attack was caught in time. You've still got work for him eh, LORD?
now unto HIM who is able to do EXCEEDing ABUNDANTLY more than all we could ask or think... to HIM be the glory forever and ever... amen. (eph.3:14-21).. may the LORD bless you and keep you. may the LORD make HIS face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. may HE lift up HIS countenance upon you and give you peace. amen. (num.6:24)........ peace out :) duhgh! (1:13..)
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| andrew is the STUFF (<---yeah... click it)... what an old brother i've been given :)... doing what he loves.. hahaa... by Your grace God. went to the Over the Rhine concert at calvin college (phil keaggy playing next month.. then anathello, then caedmon's call with D. WEBB!!!) :) suchhhh a brilliant time! went with mom and "RACHELLLLL!!".. they sang OHIO!!!! i couldn't have been any happier.. THANK YOU God... what a treat!!! she had done that tease bit where, before like 3 other songs, she talked a lot about her and her hubby's time in ohio.. being that they live in cincinnati (! LOVE THAT)... how she missed her dogs.. the farm.. hanging around in her pajamas for 2 or 3 days... i kept thinking.... now?! orrrr.. NOW?! oh. hmm.. YEAH NOW!!!! it was stumbling to hear "there's more to the world than words" i've been thinking.. that aside from situations / people / relations... i am ignoring my attachment to words. the addiction. how squirmy and unpleasant i'd become if words were removed from my expression. hmmm... to live as an observer / listener / silent. can't wrap my fingers around it.. what a headache it is to think it's an annoying topic to ponder. it's not being artsy-fartsy to (11:41p :)) meditate... to lay down in bed and daydream of the ways He expresses Himself without words..... after all. love is a, love is a, love is a verb. thanks dc talk. oh when i wake up in the morning LORD, and the sunlight hurts my eyes...and then something without warning LORD, You know that it bursts heavy on my mind.. when the day ahead of me looks impossible to face, and somebody else always knows the way.. just one look to You.. and i know it's gonna be a lovely day (out of eden.... hahaa anna;).. the music that stands in place of just this: anna brushing her hair.. her long lovely brown hair.. short now... but it WAS long... you're taking up the bathroom getting ready for co-op on monday morning.. then i grab basil (kitty) from the ceiling.. remember how she'd jump up on the window sill and get up into the ceiling from that missing panel? i'd be brushing the webs off her face.. then we'd both sort of sing this together from our different rooms. purple walls, the white dresser with yellow drawers... stickers on the side.. water bed, mirror headboard.. rooster curtains.. *sigh.. mt. healthy was the bomb. thank You for my life.... draw me into Your arms as i consider and confuse myself sometimes.. just teach me God.. as i thirst for You with.. patience.. and humility. good night.. slaap lekker......12:!3. | | |
| *sigh.. my gum is tasteless.. no more fresh. i've been re-wetting my contacts for the past 3 hours with invisible tears as i sit here dreaming... that's right. i've really been sleeping, with this disgustingly good solitary paragraph for my New Testamet pericope paper, due tomorrow, staring just as stubborn and hard back at me, and for just as long. it's winning.. BUT.. man oh man.. it's come to that point. i've procrastinated too far.. i'd never forgive myself if i went to bed now.. with this thing not finished. ginny owens is keeping my head on straight.. all this talk about falling into the same crap, wondering why His love is so deep for us.. for me. not the pity-party kind of pondering.. i really just don't get it. *sigh.. that's when we're advised to just say thanks and live for His glory in response.. cause i'll never get it.. i've got a bloody battle raging in my clogged head. i'd wail right here and now.. if only the computer lab was empty.. don't you hate it when CIRCUMSTANCES won't let you just grieve how you want.. when you want to. the hay with circumstances.. (ginny finished her second time through.. time for dc talk.. "to the rescuuuue!!!!!"). 1--an e-mail from a couple weeks ago. how applicable eh? "Here’s some ammunition for the battle that may ensue for the proper use of your time…”I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me but how to perform what is good I do not find…O, wretched man (insert…college girl) that I am, who can save me from this body of death (which would like to do something else more personally pleasing than homework) …(ready)…(here it comes)…(are you feelin’ it)…I THANK GOD!!!” There it is, He’s the one, the way, the only way, and all you do that seems mundane or unimportant behind the scenes stuff (in the secret and quiet place) is actually your opportunity to offer up a sacrifice of worship to your Father and “your Father who is in the secret place…will reward you openly” (Mt. 6:18) if you do not faint (Gal. 6:7). The time you have alone doing the stuff that needs to be done is a world of vast opportunity to be offering something up to God without it being tainted by selfish desires that enjoy being noticed for what we’re doing for God. It’s one of the truly rare opportunities to offer it up to God without the distraction of men (Col. 3:23)…so do it heartily, LJ. Pick up your passion for things and throw it into English or anatomy or whatever the opportunity is that he’s set before you. Your family loves you immensely, your friends love you, the FAM love and adore you but we’d only be a distraction when it comes time to get down to it. But our Father, now He’s different. His presence in it with you is not only [NOT] a distraction. It’s the best help you could wish for. And you, being such a socially gifted gal, need to know, KNOW, KNOW, His presence while you’re there in the trenches of school work. So, yeah, just do it for him, do it with Him in mind, do it with Him by your side. And put the rest of the world on a shelf for the moment. 2--hung out with cousins tonight :) saw geoff!, deb, kim, patti.. chilled with melissa, paul, the three kids.. brandon, amy, their three.. little ellory.. what a SWEET therapy little ones can bring to the spirit.. we had pizza and dr. pepper. 3--got to be with grandpa again tonight.. yesterday's visit was better.. he was much weaker today.. he still sang his best for Jesus Loves Me though... one that the great-grand-kids will sing and one that he knows. i was singing hymns in my dreams last night from the steady flow at grandpa's request ;) "oh what a glorious day that will be, when my Savior's face i shall see.." what a precious grandpa i have.. take him swiftly LORD.. take him HOME home. thank you for his testimony even now.. he's being patient.. may the both of us be still as you meet us where we are.. i need Thee every hour.. it IS well with my soul. 4--i love dc talk!!!!!!!! "confession is the road to healing.. forgiveness is the Promised Land.. i'm reaching out in my convictions.. i'm longing to make amends.. so i'm sorry for the words i've spoken.. for i've betrayed a Friend.. we've got a love that's worth preserving, and a bond i will DEFEND!!" 5--WYC coming up.. please provide my God.. i LOVE it that you "have searched me and known me well.. You know when i sit and when i rise.. You perceive my thoughts from afar.. You are familiar with all my ways.." 6--craig was a huge help in the library tonight.. helping me learn from his mistakes. be near my God.. please help me to use my resources.. to locate the important information in these books and be on my way.. i don't want to linger in this. 7--it was good to talk through my passage (for my paper.. eph.3.14-21) with kevin a bit.. get some doctrinal points of view.. it's been very good to have older friends here at college.. there's trecia and roger, scott.. He uses that difference.. hmm. yeah.. He does. 8--brought me THROUGH the anatomy lab final today.. provided transportation to and from.. helped me and bev to show up early.. early enough to make it for the starting time that turned out to be earlier than what we were informed.. we were there and it was FINNNEE. 9--dad liked the guitar song ;) thank You for my guitar.. You know how it ministers to my own heart. 10--i love my family (immediate, extended.. friends.. all fam) and STILL.. very much GOD i need You.. i sooo need You need need need need.. i am in Your hands Jesus.. Jesus Jesus Jesus.. *sighhhhhhh.. man. i shall rest in You.. "anytime, anyplace, You invade my space..".. You go RIGHT ahead my God... change this weary being.. may i just BE an ing.. instead of being a DOing all the time.. hmm.. stillness. "i'm setting the stage for the things i love.." change my will to be Yours.. i'm learning to give up the right's to myself, the bits and the pieces i've gathered as well. it never compared to the JOY THAT YOU GIVE ME.. the peace that You show me is the STRENGTH THAT I NEED!!!!! some people tell me You're just a dream... my faith is the evidence of things unseen.. in my mind's eye. | | |
| breakfastless and breathing in the rain, i'm killing time until english in 20 minutes. i had anatomy at calvin coll. this morning. an hour or so of familiar notes, quiet a/c, a perfectly-paced professor, and 10 minutes of devotion time prior to class. 1--ps.139:5,6 "Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid Thine hand upon me. such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, i cannot attain unto it." though unattainable, i'm craving to keep catching more and more of it pop out from behind these tall trees.. that "too wonderful" knowledge, and feeling His hand on me. just that tender sweet security that He's so close. 2--ps.139:8-10 "if i ascend up into heaven... make by bed in hell... take the wings of the morning... dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea.. BEHOLD, Thou art there. even there shall Thy hand LEAD me, and Thy right hand shall HOLD me." are you kidding me right now? man... not only is there Your presence, but you lead and hold. *sigh. 3--a girl here, in her last semester caught me on the stairs and asked if i'd like to buy her textbook for anatomy from her.. aka $60-$80 instead of $150! thanks for prompting her to do that the day before i was going to get one. thank You. 4--no homework due today. 5--i slept great last night, and woke up refreshed for class after a few hours of sleep. You carry me right through.. with songs in my head, and puddles on my feet. 6--thank You for swishing around a pursuit for a consistency in communication and desire to make You my day.. so i won't be so deeply reliant on the people i love to be / talk with for companionship. 7--thank You for the love in Your people, how they're mine and how much fun we can have in eachother's company.. for establishing that with You as the center.. that friendships are blown out of proportion.. not even normal anymore.. just family now. english hollers. peace out. duhgh :) | | |
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1--"i've had the time of my life... and i owe it all to YOU..."--2--i got to knock out kelsey's baby tooth--3--went to kels' and brookie's soccer practice--4--went to watch cody-man and chris(topher) play their football, all geared up and with their "punk" face on--5--got to hear jt's guitar song..... talking about being the coldest of embers, so unworthy / too petty to be worried about, yet Christ pursues us with His love. it was really great to just sit, listen, then think / talk about His agape love with case, shelly and jit... the SACRIFICIAL love... not the kind that we associate with a sexual relationship / not the friend or family level either--6--great to see derek again... it's been a few days. something about this distance stuff just allows a renewed appreciation for that face of his.. especially as it reflects Your character--7--the ohioan fellowship has ne'er been sweeter than these past months--8--the week camp provided brought about a calmity in my spirit.. with the pursued opportunity to focus and find Him and His whisper on my own, with that came a contentment / relief for where i'm going... to be prepping for college (Kuyper) this fall and not be downcast and heart-achey with the move to michigan--9--a PRAISE.. a million praises for how life is.. who my company is; i should cry right now, and never stall such tears of appreciation and overwhelming misunderstanding with how i could be drenched in the choice love of the southerlands, among others.--10--i am thankful that tomorrow is a personal day. i am thankful that i can wake up and speak with Him first. i am thankful for devotions on the swings / on the playset for an hour or two in the mornings. i am thankful that my last day working with josh was GREAT.. and eric and chip and bran. i loved seeing josh again, and sweeping off the courses, and cloroxing the tables, and windexing the glass. i am thankful for creativity that flows from the minds of cody-man, kels, luke, mad-mad, and julia during our days. i am thankful for kelly's laughs, her friendship / sisterly consideration, her cooking, and her willingness to stretch.. digging to find the answer instead of just saying, "i don't know" or "i'm not sure.. hmm.. bummer", her windmill cookie-vanilla ice cream ideas... "water". i am thankful for casey's 13, acceptance of my guitar tutelage, the analogies, the candidness he's willing to / does offer... that they both know what they do of me... yet trust me. that's gotta be one of the most confidence building things... to have people trust me with what's precious to them, whether it's thoughts, children, or prayer requests... i am thankful for the richness and gaiety, the lack of sleep in order to squeeze in some talks that quench my thirst for such action. for the honesty, for the servanthood displayed in each body here, and most of all... i am so thankful that these things each are lifted back to you LORD, in praise for who You are! i am thankful that i don't fully understand You or Your ways. i acknowledge that i need to let You take from me my life, cause i don't have the strength to give it away to You, Jesus. | | |
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